Thursday, July 15, 2010
zzz
この餓鬼！早く消える！！てメはとても駄目の虫だ！！俺様が嫌い! やっぱりテメがいないは最高だ! テメを死ねば好いと思うだ！！
皆が大嫌い！！絶対皆を殺す！！！ ARGHHH!!
posted by hahaha @ 1:06 AM
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Solitary
a masked face, emitting the sound of laughter, overflowing with tears, tears of sadness and agony. each teardrop filled with pain and sorrow. each of its movement is fuelled by anger and hatred. all resulted by a foolish mistake i have made once again. i had forgotten the feeling of solitude. i got too caught up in my delusive life which seemed much better than it was previously. but the moment the illusions are over, reality strikes back. stepping back into the solitude, once again i have forgotten the feeling of solitude. it feels all so unfamiliar, yet too familiar. the blinding pitch black darkness, the deafening silence, the never-ending corner. all these reminding me. friends are merely temporary. they come and go as and when they like. true friends arent real. they will still eventually go. afterall, we are all nothing but tools to each other's success or failures. we all walk at different paces. eventually, the gap will be seen. our limits will be reached. we will no longer be able to wait or catch up. everybody for themselves. when you trust them most, they abandon you for someone else. they never keep to what they say. they will not help you when you need it most. they'll watch your dreams shatter and plunder into the never-ending depths of nothingness. a lesson that i must remember. its only a matter of time before the cycle repeats again. well, at least for me i guess. but who knows? maybe it's happening only to me. entering a brand new environment, with nobody i know. forcing me once again to accept the fate that I am forever alone. I am a nobody. Nobody is perfect. Therefore I am perfect. But. You can't be perfect if you are a nobody. Therefore, I am merely a Nobody and I'm NOT perfect. Just stop trying to get me out of the solitude I belong in. It'll only harm me in turn. You may not care. But I do. Just Keep Out Of My Life. It Exists For Me To Be Alone.
posted by hahaha @ 12:29 AM
