Thursday, December 18, 2008
yes, im still alive...
havent blogged for awhile, for those of u wonderin, yea, im still alive n kicking, kinda sad ya? >_>"
ah well, have to live wif it, gonna change blogskin, needa do some re-coding for a new blogskin i found, sad siol
gettin tgt wif my lower pri frens, the last thing i expected was to catch up wif my lower pri frens, been awhile since i last seen them, some maybe ever since p5 onwards i didnt get a chance to see their faces again, so, 4A '02 class gathering, anyone wans it? probably in jan, pls tell the person settin dis thing up (not me) <_<">
nth much to say liao jus some major catching up to do
k all, i go sleep le
nitz~
posted by hahaha @ 2:11 AM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
emptiness
went to the arcade wif yl n pravin 2day, 1st went to j8 arcade, played house of dead 4, basketball thingy n daytona 4, den we went over to ang mo kio hub the arcade, went there, played daytona again o_O den yl played drums, aint gonna say wad happened, den played the ddr thingy, totally lamezzz, pravin chose the trainin 1 1st >_>" like wtf, den played again, played the arcade mode, got f, <_< wad can u expect frm a 1st-timer =X
aftr tt went over orchard, came back aftr 9.30, aftr tt, for some reason, started feelin empty, recently been feelin dis more frequently n more strongly each time. when i wanted to blog jus a moment ago, i stared at the blank page, mind went blank, felt so empty, wonder wads wrong. tears seemed to wanna flow out of my eyes, wonder y. each day, i feel like im drifitng further apart from smth impt, but i simply have no idea. these emptiness feels like a sorrow for somebody else. wad could be drifting away?
its about time i took some time off to start thinking. time to snap out of the trance n realize wads going on. its time to wake up. if not im gonna suffer more den ever. feelin so dead. i wish i could jus go off to the other world. i try my best to keep away the sad side of me away frm everybody, its tiring, i dun wan anyone to noe im sad. i dun wan anyone to worry. if i could jus drop dead, wouldnt it be good? i wouldnt have to burden myself or anyone else. be sad for the moment, live happily ever after. life will be much better w/o me. nobody else would be hurt. i feel utterly useless. i nvr seem to be doin the right thing. i can even screw up simple things. i have bad memory. so y cant i jus sleep for the last time n nvr wake up ever again? im more stressed out den wad seems to be a carefree me. who jus relax all day long. im not who n wad u all think i m. nobody understands me. i sacrifice secretly in the dark for the benefit of them. im more lonely den anybody else. i've to keep everything to myself. i cant afford to worry them. i've to drag on wif dis burden till the day i die. so y cant i jus end my journey here? y m i forced to such misery? it may not be physically stressing like being starved or being frozen or being burnt. but its mentally stressing, im not sure how much more can i take b4 i breakdown.
u may ask me wads wrong, my reply is, "nth". convincin enuff for u to trust me. but its cos i cant bear to let anyone take the load for me.
so now, im gonna sleep n hope i dun wake up.
nitz all~
posted by hahaha @ 12:25 AM
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
damn, im jobless
Probably a long post 2day, to summarize some of the days which i didnt blog
I'm now officially n unofficially jobless ._."
y? simple, cos i lost both my official n unofficial job
my official job at the IT fair is over, n my unofficial job at my aunt's place is over as well
sad ya? ._."
means no more extra income D=
ah well, wad sucks more is tt i got my new hard disk (yes! finally!!!) but, omgwtfbbq sauce it cant work Dx needa format it 1st, if suay, need buy new power supply, need my bro to come back frm tekong again to help me format it siol...... saddddd!!!!!
kinda late, but, prom night was a blast
probably my last time breaking for dis batch of students, zul n me went up stage n started breaking, was awesome man, all the stunts we knew, all came out, or at least most of em >_>"
too bad i didnt take any photos n i dunno if anyone took any photos or vids, if anyone has them, pls send them to me, not neccesarily me up stage, but nice shots from prom night.
let's see, wad else did i miss out...
hmmm....
oh yea, IT fair, total revenue for logitech....
53K!!!
OMFGWTF!!!! 7K AWAY FROM COMMISSION!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
so my basic pay will be $200 for the 4 days, hopefully, they may have some kind-heartedness to give some commission. (highly doubt so though)
i believe in my side, im the best salesperson over there. most of the good quality expensive stuff, im the one to sell it off 1st, den overall, probably the most expensive stuff sold.
im the 1st to sell off the G51 speakers ($249 i think), G25 ($459 on 2nd day, $429 on 3rd n 4th day), PS3 cordless mediaboard pro [PC compatible] ($119 on 1st day, $109 subsequent days) n a hell lot more, for quantity wise, the optical mouse ($13.90) 1 can even sell up to 3 of them to 1 person. PSP cover ($29.90) [all versions compatible even psp 3000] 1 person up to 10 pieces. u got tt rite, TEN PIECES!!!
2 webcams ($25.90 ea), few headsets (ranging frm $19.90~$65) per person sometimes, yea, its me alrite! i sold a hell load of quantity n quality stuff, aftr the show, "u were excellent" by some of my managers :DDD not to the rest~ :P
im damn good~
too bad i 4got to get the numbers of my new colleagues (hey, its good to make frens, especially since there r 3 cute gals over there =P, k shuddup XD)
pay will come in like, 14 days aftr the show? >_>"
oh yea, i jus joined dis new wushu place, traditional style, best part, free ;D
dis pai is wong feihong's pai, damn cool yea? :DDD
dun mess wif me XDDDD
but now i've gotta learn lion dance frm them 1st
lion dance is harder den i tot, the head is relatively heavy, n oso, the steps mus be reali acurate, usin wushu techniques >_>"
im surprised <_<"
speaking about wushu, 2day jus watched kung-fu panda >_>"
YES IM FRIGGIN OUTDATED!! SO SHUDDUP! NOBODY ASKED FOR
YOUR FUCKING OPINION >_>"
so funny siol XD
watch liao makes me more motivated to train wushu!
LOL!
XDDD
k, so now, im stuck at home, nth to do, gonna rot myself to death, no extra income, no job.
FUCKING ICA! GIMME TT FUCKING CALL SO I CAN
FUCKING HELL GET TO WORK N GET MY FUCKING
EXTRA INCOME U SON OF BITCHES!!! FUCK URSELF
HAPPY N GIMME A DAMN JOB!!!
so yea, currently im fucking hell bored to the fucking core of my mind wif nth better to do in dis pathetic fucking house, gonna be glued to my com the whole fucking day, playing tt same few fucking games till my bro finally fuckingly gets back fuckingly help me to fucking hell format my fucking new hard disk, so i can finally fuckingly use my new fucking hard disk which he says can only be fucking hell be formated only on his fucking com which of cos fucked up cos he doesnt fuckingly entrust me wif his com, due to some fucking coincidences when i fuckingly use his com to fucking hell play some games he himself fuckingly play, his com gets fucked up soon after. feel free to count the amt of times i used the word fuck including this.
haiz....
the results of boredom.
i seriously got nth better to do.
n seriously, dis family is rather fucked up, no fucking brains, doesnt use fucking common sense, says i dun have common sense, THEY ARE THE ONES WHO DUN HAVE ANY FUCKING COMMON SENSE!
they brought me up dis way anyway, reap wad u sow bitches! wad i do makes sense, while wad u all do doesnt. helpin those who needs smth not as urgently or importantly as compared to one who needs it more. fucked up? yea i agree too. some minor family conflicts. seriously fucked up.
seem to be writing a compo over here o_O
ah well, i did say it will probably be a long post >_>"
den again, i should end dis, cos i've got nth much else to blog about.
jus somehow feels kinda weird, holidays, exams r over, nth to study, dying of boredom w/o a job. pathetic family who doesnt use their brains. cant get outta house. family dun allow me to get outta house n at the same time, dun wan me to look for a job. stupid eh?
wan me to rot to death? go ahead, if u wan i can show u tt i can literally rot myself to death at dis rate.
zzzz......
4get it, im gonna go sleep =.="
nitz all =.="
posted by hahaha @ 12:32 AM
