Wednesday, February 18, 2009
-nil-
hello all, happy reali reali belated valentine's day, didnt have time to blog.
heres a gift to all:
n i 4got wad i wanted to blog about, so nitz all ._."
posted by hahaha @ 2:36 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Just another post
1st things 1st! OMFGWTFBBQ!!! I GOT A STEEL SERIES 5H V2 HEADPHONES!!! OMFG!!! THX SOOOOO MUCH!!!
for those of u who dunno bout dis, go google, its gonna mindfuck u.
k, enuff of rejoicing, so i've got my posting, aftr much thinking n overthinking, i've finally made my final decision, so yea, gratz to me, cos i dun have to fucking think anymore. For the past few weeks(?) i believe im gonna ace every single thing im given, but just recently, part of reality fell on me. im suddenly beginning to doubt, will i be able to do it? a perfect score, isit possible? aftr much thinking, i believe i can do it! but, theres always some doubt, wad if i screw up by accident?
wad if i overdid things? trying to do things over my level, failing eventually due to the lack of technology, lack of information the world currently provides? im not trying to say im smart, but i believe im very innovative, sometimes i think too much. in the past, i tot of many things, all out of current technology we are all provided. i've forgotten a hell lot of things which i thought of. sometimes, i wanna learn much more, but the level im studying in, doesnt teach me sufficiently, it doesnt satisfy my desires, doesnt quench the thirst my curiousity gives me. y cant i be born in a time of much higher technology where my full potential can be shown?
for some reason, probably cos i've got too much times on my hands, i've started thinking alot, probably retribution for not thinking enuff in the past. i realized i changed alot since i was young, when i was young, i didnt noe anything, i didnt care for any precision, or more like i didnt noe precision, everything of my imagination was of no ressemblence to the things of the real world. rite now, i belive im way too practical. my creativity has been extinguished, but i believe it isnt fully extinguished n it can be relit. rite now, my imagination doesnt take me anywhere creative, but it takes me to the finest precision, even smaller than atoms itself. the figures i think of goes of to tons of decimal places. the images i think of, goes even smaller den of pixels.
ah well, i guess ppl do change, i do hope i do change back while retaining my level of understanding or even deeper.
haiz, was intending to watch breakout, but, FUCK! i was too slow, tix ALL SOLD OUT!!! noooo!!! T~T guess i should start planning ahead nowadays. haiz... hopefully can dl it nxt time ;DD
haha, each paragraph seems so random, totally off-topic to the last paragraph. i think im slimming down n getting a better figure o_O the pants which i wore seems looser O_o, the shirt tt shrank seems to be fitting me perfectly now. i shall continue working hard at my late-night training, doing kerropi, handstands, push ups, tuck jumps, punching(?) etc. hopefully in a few months, im gonna get a good figure ;DDD oh yea i rawk~ :D
sadly, still no news frm him yet T~T! i wan my DJ-ing classes T~T!!!
im kinda contemplating on wad i should be joining, a successful orchestra? or smth else which i've nvr tried out b4 n wans to try out n excel veh well? :D im stuck wif tons of questions nowadays. like i said, probably retribution for not thinking n planning ahead while i was younger >.<"
empty feelings fill me up once again, once in awhile, recently increasing >.>" wonder wad do i wan ._."
ah well, time for me to sleep :DD
nitz all~
peace out yo~~~
posted by hahaha @ 1:22 AM
