went to the arcade wif yl n pravin 2day, 1st went to j8 arcade, played house of dead 4, basketball thingy n daytona 4, den we went over to ang mo kio hub the arcade, went there, played daytona again o_O den yl played drums, aint gonna say wad happened, den played the ddr thingy, totally lamezzz, pravin chose the trainin 1 1st >_>" like wtf, den played again, played the arcade mode, got f, <_< wad can u expect frm a 1st-timer =X

aftr tt went over orchard, came back aftr 9.30, aftr tt, for some reason, started feelin empty, recently been feelin dis more frequently n more strongly each time. when i wanted to blog jus a moment ago, i stared at the blank page, mind went blank, felt so empty, wonder wads wrong. tears seemed to wanna flow out of my eyes, wonder y. each day, i feel like im drifitng further apart from smth impt, but i simply have no idea. these emptiness feels like a sorrow for somebody else. wad could be drifting away?
its about time i took some time off to start thinking. time to snap out of the trance n realize wads going on. its time to wake up. if not im gonna suffer more den ever. feelin so dead. i wish i could jus go off to the other world. i try my best to keep away the sad side of me away frm everybody, its tiring, i dun wan anyone to noe im sad. i dun wan anyone to worry. if i could jus drop dead, wouldnt it be good? i wouldnt have to burden myself or anyone else. be sad for the moment, live happily ever after. life will be much better w/o me. nobody else would be hurt. i feel utterly useless. i nvr seem to be doin the right thing. i can even screw up simple things. i have bad memory. so y cant i jus sleep for the last time n nvr wake up ever again? im more stressed out den wad seems to be a carefree me. who jus relax all day long. im not who n wad u all think i m. nobody understands me. i sacrifice secretly in the dark for the benefit of them. im more lonely den anybody else. i've to keep everything to myself. i cant afford to worry them. i've to drag on wif dis burden till the day i die. so y cant i jus end my journey here? y m i forced to such misery? it may not be physically stressing like being starved or being frozen or being burnt. but its mentally stressing, im not sure how much more can i take b4 i breakdown.
u may ask me wads wrong, my reply is, "nth". convincin enuff for u to trust me. but its cos i cant bear to let anyone take the load for me.
so now, im gonna sleep n hope i dun wake up.
nitz all~
posted by hahaha @ 12:25 AM

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